Growing Up

When you are growing up, you have to go through a lot of crap that will make you into more of a neurotic being. School wants to mold you into a category and puts pressure on you to be a certain way, and if you are not they make you feel bad about it. You grow up competing with grades and assurance that you are doing well, and you don't really know how to think for yourself. The worst part is that they never teach you about anything important, like love. Love and having a family, are probably the most important thing you can learn, and it would probably save a lot of kids from problems down the road. You can't really teach anyone how to love, it is a natural thing, but you can teach them things like how you need to be rational at the same time as falling in love, or else you might do something impulsive. There are logistics in love, even though it is an irrational thing. You have to know the consequences of marriage, what it will be like, what having kids will be like etc.

Right now adolescence is the biggest tragedy. You start having a major identity crisis around age 13 and you feel like you have to be something. You really have no where to go but to conform or completely drop out of the game, or like I did, play the game on the outside and think about the universe on the inside. You are ripped out of the glorious childhood world of exploration and joy and curiosity, and you are told you have to be a productive member of society, and compete with all of your peers, because it is a dog eat dog world. That kills your joy fast, and you start dying to things slowly. You are dying slowly because you have to become a certain thing to succeed. Then we get older and get a job, and do a constant passionless circle of work, home sleep work home sleep work home sleep.  

There has to be a model of society where you do not have grow up in certain areas, such as joy and wonder. You need to grow up and become wise about how the world works logistically, and about how you work, so you can have a balance between these two and be able to function. I suggest less work. I mean, if everyone on earth was given a job, we would all work less. We would take up creative activities during our free time. Work sucks, it is true.